My Acne Story Part Deuce

If you haven't read my acne story, go read it. I previously talked about my struggle with acne but what I didn't touch upon was the after effects of such a painful and scaring ordeal.

It's something I don't share with anyone, not my parents or significant other but I will talk for the first time today. I am emotionally scar'd by my struggle with acne. I still to this day cannot look at someone in the face. My face is something I have learned to hide from others so they won't see my imperfections. In high school I walked with my head down everyday, even to a point one of my good friends said I had low self esteem. I told her I did but I didn't mention why.
To have a new blemish on your face everyday took it's toll on me. I didn't go out with friends at all, I went to school then home. I would constantly cry about my acne, going to the dermatologists so often and not seeing any results was frustrating and gave me a sense of hopelessness.
I look back on it now and I still cry. It's emotionally taxing on a girl who should be living out the best years of her life but instead hides from everyone.
Once I reached college it got alittle better but I had far from clear skin. I took and did anything I could but I was still getting new pimples everyday. However, living in a dorm had me face school peers on a regular basis. I started college in August, by September I had my first boyfriend. I met him also as I was hiding my face but he made me face him. He was the first to call me beautiful and I connect my increase in self esteem to him. He never mentioned my skin, he would look into my eyes and tell me how beautiful I was and that helped me immensely. Later on I discovered he struggled with acne all through high school and it subsided before starting college.
Still.. after even graduating college I had bad skin, I did and tried EVERYTHING to not avail. Now as an adult I have finally found a regime that is working for me. I have to admit BC pills played a small part in clearing up some of my skin. It stopped my reoccurring breakouts and finally gave my face time to heal itself from past breakouts. It was by no means a miracle drug but it helped me. My regime has worked for me for the past 2 years and for all those suffering from acne, try out my regime. As I know from my past experience, not all acne medications/cremes/cleansers work but it can't hurt to try this.